Lyric of the Day

I love my sister so much. She is hurting so much right now. I only want her to move on and for the healing to begin. She is smart, beautiful and talented. If only the people who hurt her could see this. They are so blinded by their own lives and search for fame and something new. I believe in karma. What goes around, comes around. These people have treated her like trash, they too will get treated as such. I love you Cayla, and am asking you to take the power back. I know you will find your happiness.

"Am I breathing?

My strength fails me

Your picture, a bitter memory

For comfort, for solace

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace

(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting

(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart..."

- The End of Heartache by Killswitch Engage

I Heart Amelie Poulain

I heart Amelie Poulain. I have since the moment I saw the movie. Maybe it's her hair, maybe it's the twinkle in her eyes when she does something good for someone else. Maybe it is when she gets joy out of the simple pleasures in life, like running her hands through a sack full of beans. She is child-like yet longs for love. She is wonderful. I take from her that we all need to simplify,sit back and breathe, learn to love and do good things for others, for then good things will happen to us.

Narrator: "Amelie has a strange feeling of absolute harmony. It's a perfect moment. A soft light, a scent in the air, the quiet murmur of the city. A surge of love, an urge to help mankind overcomes her. "

Lyric of the Day

To continue my theme of moaning and whining about how I feel that I am under-appreciated as a friend, I picked these lyrics today. Rather they stood out for me and here I share them with you. It is enough from me. I am no longer going to be a Moaning Minnie. How negative. Rather, I will take the lesson from this, whatever it is and MOVE on...

"I brought down the sky for you but all you did was shrug"

- Audience of One by Rise Against

Lyric of the Day

Some of my friends went to Durban this long weekend. I did not go. Not for lack of wanting to. Alas, I did not go with. However I have REALLY bad FOMO (Fear-Of-Missing-Out). This made the situation, well, traumatic for me. I immediately felt lost without them and went into absolute victim mode. Oh what was I to do without them? Oh, whoa was me. Well, I got over it (for the first night) and went out with other friends. Sometimes putting on a brave, smiling face when you feel let down and disappointed is the only way to convince yourself that things will be just fine.

You know that feeling when you see something, read something, hear something that breaks your heart. Your chest starts to ache, your breathing quickens, your body warms, your sight blurs, you are angry, sad, frustrated and feeling left out. Photos suck sometimes.

But then, you have to accept that there is nothing that you can do to change what has happened and you have to move on and make the correct choices for the future.

This is just me being a Grade-A drama queen, I have the want to be at all places at the same time. Silly yes, "curable", maybe...

I am however amazed at my friends who called me up this weekend to invite me out. I was never alone this long weekend. Some I have not seen in a while, but they are still my buddies. I love how random life can be! They led me out of the dark, and I love them for that. They helped me get over myself.

"With your head pounding harder than your heart,

And you feel that you're stuck where you are.

With your lungs filled with smoke,

And you know that you're heading towards the dark.

When it seems like this scene never ends,

Then the least you can do is pretend.

That the life you've been living is leading you out of the dark."

Your World On Fire by In Fear and Faith

Lyric of the Day

"Oh, no I do not hook up, up I go slow

So if you want me, I don't come cheap

Keep your hand in my hand,

Your heart on your sleeve

Oh, no I do not hook up, up I fall deep

Cause the more that you try, the harder I'll fight

To say goodnight

"I can't cook no, but I can clean up the mess she left

Lay your head down and feel the beat

As I kiss your forehead

This may not last but this is now

So love the one you're with

You wanna chase but you're chasin' your tail

A quick fix won't ever get you well..."

I Do Not Hook Up by Kelly Clarkson

Lyric of the Day

I have been listening to Kiss non-stop at work. They are awesome, and for lack of a better word, they rock. They exude all the sex, drugs and rock and roll one could ever need out of a band. Too cool. So I share with you a snippet from one of the songs Paul and I have been enjoying.

"I wanna rock and roll all night and party every day"

- Rock and Roll All Night by Kiss

Lyric of the Day

I made the decision on Saturday night that I was going to start being true to myself and will start living my authentic life. I have become the ultimate people pleaser and have put my wants, needs, desires and enjoyments to the side. I always do what other people want to do and finally on Saturday I snapped. I preached living the authentic life, was always a happy-go-lucky, "ain't nothing-gonna-get-me-down" kinda person, yet I was not being true to myself. I have coasted on through the year, and I won't lie, I have had a marvellous time with my friends, but now I feel that it is time to make time for me. I also think that the choice to remain single, and "unbound" is the right choice for me. But hey, that's just me rattling off some silliness really. I will still have fun, I will still have fun with my friends, but I need to have fun for myself too.

"This ride that takes me through life

Leads me into darkness but emerges into light

No one can ever slow me down

I'll stay unbound"

- Unbound by Avenged Sevenfold

My theory...

I have had this theory for a while now... that brunettes are the girlfriends and blondes are well, the flings. I will find a guy and then find out why he has been ruined and it will always have been the work of some Brunette. The blonde either gets left for the more stable looking brunette or get used for a good time until the man finds his next Brunette. My theory may be whack, fulla crack, but I have come to find that this is indeed the truth. Just look at Jennifer Aniston and Angelina Jolie, the brunette won the man. Marilyn Monroe and JFK, Jackie Kennedy won the man. Marilyn was just the "silenced" mistress on the side. Sure there have been some blondes who have been in long term marriages and relationships, but this is my theory. I stand by my word. I have had more fun as a blonde. I will remain a blonde. I will take inspiration from my three favourite blondes, the gorgeous Marilyn Monroe, Scarlett Johansson and Sophie Dahl. They never compromise, thus I will become the exception to my own rule. Silly as it may seem. Now to go play some Guitar Hero!

Lyric of the Day

This post may seem like a whine and a wank on my part, but I feel I need to get this out. I think that I am a darn good friend. I put in a lot of energy and effort into my friendships. I have also learned over the years that people can be utterly disappointing and selfish, however they can be absolutely surprising and spontaneous. Alas, I am finding these moments happen less and less lately. I have been told I expect too much of people, because I am so hard on myself. I have met some wonderful people this year that I thought would be some Grade-A low maintenance friends. Um, I was wrong. All the ups and downs, and all I am looking for is a little smooth sailing, some open road, some frikkin normalcy please! This post may be incredibly vague, but hey, it makes sense to me. All I ask for, as I don't believe in wishes, is a friend that does not take me for granted and does not lie to me. Well! This is not sounding like a friend at all. Hmmm... maybe I need to do some real-life friendship culls, I've done it before and survived.

"Give me the strength to return

The breath you've stolen

Give me the means to reset..."

- Carrion by Parkway Drive

P.S. I have chosen the lyric as I know that this band holds special significance for me and said friend. Hmmmm...

earth

I have just come back from seeing the "earth" premiere, and it was goosebumps, tears, laughter and guilt. It was magical! I have the series, but I think the experience of seeing it on the "big-screen" made that difference. To be able to see the detail on a humpback whales skin, or to see the snow glisten like glitter. WOW! I am so moved. I am proud to be living on this magnificent planet and will do everything in MY power to ensure that the conservation of these animals and this planet continues. I may come off sounding like one of those "goddamn hippies", but go and see "earth" for yourself and then come back to me...

Lyric of the Day

Sometimes people say and do the nastiest things to you. I was always taught, "do unto others as you would have them do unto you". People obviously do not believe the same things. Karma bitches.

"You're just a sad song with nothing to say

About a life long wait for a hospital stay

And if you think that I'm wrong,

This never meant nothing to ya..."

Disenchanted by My Chemical Romance

Lyrics of the Day

I just love this band (and yes I know I quote them a lot, but hey! They are the best!!)

"Simply because you can breathe,

doesn't mean you're alive,

or that you really live..."

- Black Masks and Gasoline

"The heart is something you can't control

We either choose to follow or be left on our own"

- Voices off Camera

"We've all been sorry, (who we are) we've all been hurt

But how we survive, (who we are) is what makes us who we are..."

- Survive

"now's the time

to rearrange your life

live for something

outside of your own mind

we all dream

the same dream every night

to burn the world that you call civilized

alive and well

i live to be alive

and i live to always strive

for something more

alive and well..."

- Alive and Well

"We can't spend our lives waiting to live..."

- The Dirt Whispered

Lyric of the Day

I've been thinking of making a dash for someplace new and the only place I can think of going, to just be... is Colorado. A state surrounded by beautiful mountains, hot summers and cold winters. It has scenic, small towns. I want to go someplace so completely different to where I have grown up. It may be the US of A yet it appeals to me. This song played on my radio now, it appeals to me. It may be because I am so over feeling at the moment and just want to run away (booohoo the poor little emo girl) but hey, it's the lyric of the day. Take it or leave it.

"And I keep repeating, but this payphone tele stopped receiving

Flat out of change now I'm sure you won't accept the charges

It's all the same cause by the morning I'll be halfway to Colorado

Or some place like that

You said so much without ever parting your lips

It's past 3 am and I'm still far from sleep..."

Chloroform Perfume by From Autumn to Ashes.

 
 

Weekend in the Berg

So I get a call from Louise in the late morning on Friday asking if I am keen to go to the Drakensberg for the weekend, ummmm.... YES! So after much (read little and harried) organisation we packed our things and cars (ok my car) and drive the 5 hours (I drive) to the Southern Drakensberg. It was hot, it was drunken, it was chilled... It was just what I needed. I love my friends, but missed my Caroline (she had a work-do on). Looking forward to the next very random trip!

Lyric of the MONTH!!!

I poured my heart out in my previous post (lyric post) and have stumbled upon this song. It actually happens to be super popular at the moment, and I have a little guilty liking for it. This lady has truly captured what I am feeling (I am very sure millions are feeling the same way), but what the heck, this is my blog, not theirs. I couldn't have written this better myself... Thank you La Roux... quirky La Roux.
The video is super rad too! Check it out on youtube

"Been there, done that, messed around

I'm having fun, don't put me down

I'll never let you sweep me off my feet

I won't let you in again

The messages I've tried to send

My information's just not goin in

Burning bridges, shore to shore

I break away from something more

I'm not to, not to love until it's cheap

Been there, done that, messed around

I'm having fun, don't put me down

I'll never let you sweep me off my feet

This time baby

I'll be Bulletproof(repeat)

I won't let you turn around,

I'll tell you now,

I'm much too proud

To walk away from something when it's dead

Do do do your dirty worst

Come out to play when you are hurt

There's certain things that should be Left unsaid

Tick tick tick tick on the watch

Life's too short for me to stop

Oh baby, your time is running out

I won't let you turn around

And tell me now, I'm much too proud

All you do is fill be up with doubt

This time baby

I'll be Bulletproof (repeat)

This time, I'll be Bulletproof(repeat)

This time baby

I'll be Bulletproof(repeat)

This time baby, this time baby

This time baby, this time

This time baby, this time baby

Bulletproof"

- Bulletproof by La Roux

Random thoughts from 25-35 year olds - This is too funny not to share!

Pretty scary how accurate some of these are...



-I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.

-More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can think about is that I can't wait for them to finish so that I can tell my own story that's not only better, but also more directly involves me.

-Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

-I don't understand the purpose of the line, "I don't need to drink to have fun." Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and sticks when they've invented the lighter?

-Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you're going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you're crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.

-That's enough, Nickelback.

-I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

-Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the "people you may know" feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose not to be friends with?

-Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn't work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or FAQ's. We just figured it out. Today's kids are soft.

-There is a great need for sarcasm font.

-Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first saw it.

-I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I'll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone's laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I'm still the only one who really, really gets it.

-How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

-I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

- I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.

-The only time I look forward to a red light is when I’m trying to finish a text.

- LOL has gone from meaning, "laugh out loud" to "I have nothing else to say".

- I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

- Whenever someone says "I'm not book smart, but I'm street smart", all I hear is "I'm not real smart, but I'm imaginary smart".

- How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear what they said?

- I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!

- Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using 'as in' examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete idiot. Today I had to spell my boss's last name to an attorney and said "Yes that's G as in...(10 second lapse)..ummm...Goonies"

-What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?

- While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and i nstinctively swerved to avoid it...thanks Mario Kart.

- Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

- I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the shower first and THEN turn on the water.

-Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.

-I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

- Bad decisions make good stories

-Whenever I'm Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don't mind if I do!

- Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?

-If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring would probably just be completely invisible.

-Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I'm from, this shouldn't be a problem....

-You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you've made up your mind that you just aren't doing anything productive for the rest of the day.

-Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don't want to have to restart my collection.

-There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

-I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

- "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this ever.

-I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people watching TV. There's so much pressure. 'I love this show, but will they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren't watching this. It's only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?'

-I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What'd you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?

- I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

-When I meet a new girl, I'm terrified of mentioning something she hasn't already told me but that I have learned from some light internet stalking.

-I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it's on shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.

-Why is a school zone 20 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising speed for pedophiles...

- As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.

-Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

-It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.

-I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

-Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn't know what do to with it.

-Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, hitting the G-spot, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I’d bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time every time...

-My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day "Dad what would happen if you ran over a ninja?" How the hell do I respond to that?

-It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and the link takes me to a video instead of text.

-I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they drive behind obeys the speed limit.

-I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

Lyric of the Day

It has been far too long since I posted, and I think this past weekend has given me more than enough to write about. I am no longer going to let my guard down. This girl will remain hardened, guarded and play downright hard-to-get. I am no longer going to play the field as they say. I have had enough of silly little head games. I am tired of being the fling. I am tired of bad timing. I am tired of being told how wonderful and awesome I am, but that "they don't want to hurt me". I am tired of cellinis, samsonites and louis vuittons, I am not a baggage handler. I am tired of being blonde, I think it is time for a new hair colour. I am tired of losing friends, and of bad conversation (I'm also tired of bad television). That was a side thought, apologies. I look forward to meeting new people. I look forward to making new friends and strengthening the friendships I already have. However, I am tired of being alone. I enjoy my solitude, but a little love goes a long way...

"Torturing ourselves

We must be into the abuse

If you're the rope that ties us together

Then please make me a new sad speech

Or leave and beg me just to stay

Used to run to my arms

But now I'm pulling away

Come and go as you please

I'm like a part time lover

With well worn knees

Well come on"

- Blame Me! Blame Me! by Anberlin